today, as it always was in my childhood, April 23th is a cold day... after the warm and sunny days we spent last week, it comes as a shock to see that it rains accompanied by a strong wind...
oh I wanted it to be a sunny spring... reading Dracula again, seeing that the first journal entry, Jonathan's entry is made on May 3rd, and having read the book in English first when I was a 3rd degree student at the English Department, of course I inevitably remembered the spring of 2004, when i was reading the book...
now, another spring, another class I'm attending and reading a novel that begins on a spring day... leaving my birthday behind on the 14th of April, the desire to have a better spring and summer rises and rises in me... I want to leave all the darkness of winter, all the heaviness of past years behind and want to be fully, totally out in the sun...
want to believe that everything will be perfect...